If Only

Day Five of NaPoWriMo. Lots of choices for the prompt today. I chose to write a villanelle, which is defined as such:

The classic villanelle has five three-line stanzas followed by a final, four-line stanza. The first and third lines of the first stanza alternately repeat as the last lines of the following three-line stanzas, before being used as the last two lines of the final quatrain.

Clear as mud? I thought so, too. But I gave it a go anyway.

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If Only

If we only had the time –
just imagine if you would –
all the mountains we could climb.

Wouldn’t it be fine?
Leisured strolls in shaded woods
if we only had the time?

If we let the years unwind,
wove the hard times with the good,
all the mountains we could climb.

We’d pick peaches in their prime,
dine beneath the cottonwoods
if we only had the time.

If we heard the clock bells chime,
left our worries where they stood,
all the mountains we could climb!

How might our futures be defined
if we only understood?
If we only had the time,
all the mountains we could climb.


Also posting on dVerse, where the poem form for the month is the villanelle. 

Checking In

Day Four of NaPoWriMo.

And now for today’s (optional) prompt, inspired by Teicher’s poem “Son“. One thing you might notice about this poem is that it is sad, but that it doesn’t generate that feeling through particularly emotional words. The words are very simple. Another thing you might notice is that it’s a sonnet – not in strict iambic pentameter, but fourteen rhymed, relatively short lines.

Today, we’d like to challenge you to write your own sad poem, but one that, like Teicher’s, achieves sadness through simplicity. Playing with the sonnet form may help you – its very compactness can compel you to be straightforward, using plain, small words.

My post from yesterday was sad enough, but okay. In sonnet form, here goes:

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Checking In

I don’t recall the last time we had dined
with just the two of us away from home.
I guess we’d never found ourselves inclined
to try relating one-on-one alone.

Conversation did not come easily,
but not for lack of words that need be said.
In short, your failing ears could not hear me.
Nonetheless you’d smile and nod your head.

A gentleman you’ve been for all your years,
your empty wallet drawn to pay the bill.
You needn’t pay, Dad, now that you live here.
I bussed the table once you’d had your fill.

A nurse came by and took you by the sleeve.
It’s best, she said, that you not see me leave.


Also posting for V.J.’s Weekly Challenge #42: farewells

In Passing

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We met at the park, the one where a paved trail winds around an open grass field. He walked his tiny black poodle in one direction. I walked my midsize white Eskie in the other, and we would cross paths, usually beneath the tall cedar trees that provided welcome shade in the summer, and protection from rain the rest of the year.

His name was Don. The poodle was Mon Cheri, his neighbor’s dog that he borrowed for his morning walks.

Don would see us approaching on the trail, and would exclaim, “Look, Mon Cheri, it’s your friend!”

Mon Cheri would growl at my Chules and strain at her leash to gain distance. Don didn’t seem to notice, and neither did Chules.

Don would smile at Chules. “What a happy dog! Isn’t he pretty, Mon Cheri?”

At some point, Don changed direction on how he walked the loop, from clockwise to counterclockwise. I changed direction, too. Don seemed nice enough, but no matter how many times he tried to cajole Mon Cheri about her happy fluffy dog friend, Mon Cheri still rejected Chules.

Over time, our conversations expanded. I told him about stripping the old oak floors in my house. He warned me about fumes and gas pilot lights, lest they meet and blow up the house.

Don explained his reason for changing directions on the loop. It was easier to navigate a small incline in the path.

“You can’t see it, but it’s there,” he said.

He was right. I couldn’t see it.

I didn’t see Don for a while, and then one day he was back. He had shaved his beard, and maybe his head as well. He always wore a flat newsboy cap, and I had never noticed his hair length. His pace had slowed considerably.

“How are you doing?” I asked. “I’ve missed seeing you.”

“Oh,” he replied. “I’ve been coming later than I used to. I don’t get up as early in the mornings anymore. And on Sundays I go to church. It’s nice to see everyone.”

I contemplated inviting Don out for coffee. He seemed lonely. And frail. More frail each time we met. But it felt awkward, so I didn’t ask.

One day, we met on the path, and Don told me about receiving chemotherapy. He’d decided to stop treatment and resort to positive visualization and healthy eating  and “all those things they say to do.”

This was the first time Don had spoken of his health, or anything intimate or personal at all. I didn’t know what to say.

I made some throat noises that I hoped were consoling, and agreed when he said sometimes it’s best to let things take their course.

He was tired, I could tell. Tired of struggling to walk up imperceptible inclines. Tired of fighting battles he would ultimately lose. He’d even given up on trying to convince Mon Cheri that she and Chules were fast friends.

I didn’t see Don after that.

One day I crossed paths at the park with another man and his dog. I had seen them on several occasions stop and speak with Don, just as I had done.

“Have you seen Don lately?” I asked.

“Who?”

“The gentleman with the little black poodle and the newsboy cap. He used to walk here, but I haven’t seen him in a while.”

The man didn’t know who I meant.

I cried for Don. I hoped he’d had a good life. I hoped he’d been loved.

Chules and I don’t visit that park much anymore. We walk a different trail now, where we sometimes cross paths with a man and his midsize black dog named Pink.

How to

Day One of NaPoWriMo. The prompt:

[W]rite poems that provide the reader with instructions on how to do something.

Herewith,

how to

How To

There’s so many things I’ve yet to learn,
like where and why and what and who.
So who said what, why is it where
most try to teach “how to?”

How to fall in love;
how to win it back.
How to lose the oaf
when his façade cracks.

How to earn big bucks
quick and easily,
how to file the forms
for your bankruptcy.

How to win respect from
those you disdain,
how to show concern
with sympathy feigned.

I won’t tell you how
to live your life.
It takes patience, care
and sometimes strife.

But I’ll gladly show how
to change your and my luck
with just four installments
of twenty bucks.

Invisible

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You didn’t see me.
You watched my reflection
turn in a direction
you chose not to see.

You didn’t hear me.
You thought I was sleeping.
In fact, I was weeping.
You chose not to hear.

You didn’t touch me.
You thought I might crumble.
You thought you might stumble.
You chose not to feel.

You didn’t miss me.
You thought I had left you,
came not to my rescue.
You chose to move on.

I vow to be seen,
and heard and respected;
my path self-selected;
invisible no more.


dVerse Poetics: Invisible